Relapse

DATE NIGHT:

So after the gym, Max and I finally decided on a place to go to dinner. We decided on Lucille's BBQ, Black Pepper Grill, P.F. Chang's King Louie's Fishhouse. This allergy to gluten really kicks my butt sometimes. I am weak strong in resisting my urges to food that I cannot have, but tonight was impossible. My crab and shrimp salad finally reached me when I noticed it looked like crap not necessarily like the salads I am used to. There were whole carrot and celery sticks in it, along with a mountain high stack of olives, hard boiled eggs which I dispise do not care for and cucumber and tomatoe slices that couldn't even have fit in Julia Robert's mouth- I mean these things were huge! After taking off amost of these things I began enjoying my salad- until I looked over at Max's plate. Max knows that I can't have bread and that nearly 99% of the restaurants we go to bring over bread as an appetizer, so he usually places it along the far side of his plate where I don't have to look at it. But tonight was too hard to resist! Max took a piece of the steaming hot sourdough bread (my favorite BREAD!) and scooped out the middle, soft part and began chewing it. There was no going back after this.

"I can't take it anymore. Give me a piece," I said in a ravenous voice.

"Are you sure," Max asked.

"I'm sure. I don't care if I'm itchy all night. I NEED some."

and that was that.

After dinner we walked around the District and enjoyed the cool Summer breeze....

.....until i saw....... P.F. CHANGS!!


Thoughts circulating in Drea's mind-

(They have one of your favorite desserts there- and its gluten free. You love chocolate. There's fruit in it so its kind of healthy. It's relatively small. You're burning calories right now by walking that you can afford to make up with that dessert. You went to the gym earlier...


....ENOUGH! I'll ask Max if I can get one!)


Of course Max said yes and we went in and got THE GLUTEN FREE CHOCOLATE DOME WITH BERRIES.

and guess what? My stomach is queasy all because I couldn't control myslef and finished all half of that darn chocolate miracle all by myself.


(stomach induced weak voice mumbling):


Adieu.

Errand Day

I love Fridays. I get to sleep in most of the time and wake up to beautiful sunshine and clouds and cars driving by slowly and usually a couple of messages waiting for me on my phone. I feel significant on Fridays. The day I usually do laundry, bake a new concoction, mail things, catch up on my cleaning around the house, shop (these days are few and far between now since I'm saving for the wedding, but even window shopping is fun), paint my nails, watch some artsy independent film, and sip on some yummy tea.

Fridays keep me sane.

I'm not the most emotionally balanced person ever and there are times when I am cranky and pout but I like to think Fridays balance me out.

Today's movie was : Rachel Getting Married.

I am really into dark movies that most of the time depress others, but this one was especially good. I feel like in life there are not always happy endings and for movie directors to be bold enough to capture moments like these, well that's just bold and I love it. And this movie did end on a positive note so all the better.

I also finished up my Mother's Day shopping! I love buying gifts for people, it makes me happy to think I can make them happy for a day =]

Tonights agenda:

the gym with Max and possibly a date?! HOORAY!!!

Today's special is "Scrambled Brains"

So sorry for all of the crap I'm about to unload but I need to vent. I'm extremely frustrated. I think it all started last night.

setting: Lindo Michocan (Mexican restaurant) for margaritas:

To celebrate Cinco de Mayo me, max, and some of our friends decided to get some margaritas at a restaurant around the corner from Max's place. Everything was great until we saw a married couple we all knew who were out celebrating. The wife of this married couple decided to spend the whole night bashing marriage saying it's a bad idea and what's the point someone will end up cheating anyway and so on and so on. Just what every engaged couple wants to hear, right? WRONG! what is wrong with you? If you're so unhappy in your marriage why are you still married?! And I'm certainly no one to judge but when you are in my and my fiancé's face bashing the respect, commitment, love, and honor we place in our relationship it's going to upset me that you speak the way you do. I really feel sorry for you. And Im not saying that in a bratty, rude way. Honestly I feel sorry for you- I wish you could be happy in your marriage. I ALWAYS want to respect my husband, value his imput, not degrade him, and show him love as often as I possibly can.



Finally I wish my boss would help me more.

Enough scramblings for today.


Here's some good news though: my spring school semester is over, I'm getting married!!, my best friend is having a graduation party this weekend, and no matter what happens in life I know that Christ loves me and my whole world could collapse in front of me and as long as I remember that I'm GOOD to go!!

Adieu bebe

Stay or Leave

there's something about Dave Matthews that's sinister, and romantic, and haunting, and playful.




Maybe different but remember
Winters warm where you and i
Kissing whiskey by the fire
With the snow outside
And when the summer comes
In the river
Swims at midnight
Shiver cold
Touch the bottom
You and I
With muddy toes

Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you should
It was good as good goes
Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you did

Wake up naked drinking coffee
Making plans to change the world
While the world is changing us
It was good good love
You used to laugh under the covers
Maybe not so often now
But the way I used to laugh with you
Was loud and hard

Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you should
It was good as good goes
Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you did

So what to do
With the rest of the day's afternoon hey
Isn't it strange how we change
Everything we did
Did I do all that i should

That I coulda done

Remember we used to dance
And everyone wanted to be
You and me
I want to be too
What day is this
Besides the day you left me
What day is this
Besides the day you went

So what to do
With the rest of the day's afternoon hey
Well isn't it strange how we change
Everything we did
Did I do all that I could

Remember we used to dance
And everyone wanted to be you and me
I want to be too
What day is this
Besides the day you went babe
What day is this

Sad Thursday

So all of my friends are leaving me... Ok not really. I'm just being dramatic. But two very important ladies in my life are moving away. I don't think I've ever had to deal with multiple friends leaving- just Julie. And I feel like no matter how much I beg her she will probably never move back. I think I was always the one to move away. Not gonna lie- it hurts. And I don't enjoy crying but everytime I think about Jess and Nicole moving I start crying.

I think that I value their friendships so much because they constantly pour out little glimpses of God to me that no one else at the time can do. It's like my relationship with Max. I feel like if all three of them were not in my life I wouldn't want to get out of bed in the morning, I might not smile at that random stranger walking by just to be nice, and I might not laugh. I know on some level that's unhealthy but it's how I feel.

In my perfect world I think I would live in a small house somewhere where it is SUPER green, with huge trees, purple flowers everywhere, and fresh markets and Nicole, Jess, Julie, and Meegs and I could raise our kids together (or dogs) and we would get chai at least once a week and watch stupid SNL skits and drink wine and try new exotic foods and eat lots and lots of cheese and run and make dumb poop jokes and praise God for everything He does.

I don't know if I ever valued friendship as much as I do
at this point in my life. I've always retreated to my room and spent countless days just spending time thinking in my own head. I think friends bring selfishness out of people and allow you to get glimpses if characteristics you would wish to have and make you aim to be a better person.


Enough of my rambling...

Sorry for being way girly.

Adieu jolie.

Babies on the brain

What, is April walk around with your baby/pregnant belly month? I get the hint people but it's quite rude to try and influence a young girl like myself into having kids so soon.

MOB of pregnanteers: Drea, you can't run forever you know!
Drea: But why not? You people are so scary!!
MOB: Pregnancy and motherhood is a wonderful thing you know.
Drea: I get that for some people it totally is but I'm just not ready for that yet. 1) I really like my body. In fact I love it. I can't give that up. 2) How am I supposed to function when all these women around me that don't have full time jobs and get to stay at home can't even handle it... I NEED sleep! 3) I love my time with Max. I don't want to be responsible for a human life that will completely drain ALL of my time from him. Other than that I can't think of anything else and I will be super happy to be a mommy when I'm ready to give up all of those things but for now- absolutely not!! maybe later.

So all of my peers trying to tell me to have kids soon:leave me alone please refrain.

Adieu

Spring Time

I'm kind in love right now.... with Mr. Springtime. Fresh mango margaritas- enough said! They were so good! And I had so much fun making them with my future in-laws. I almost can't believe I'm being blessed with such a family. Last night's dinner menu included:

scallop teriyaki salad
sage squash hash
grilled chicken breast
lemon tarts with fresh fruit medley and chocolate sauce
and of course those yummy margaritas!

Thanks Brian Bouitano (weird, right? The former figure skater had a new Food Network show) he's so funny flamboyant.

j'adore food.