I am 22 today. It's funny to think of all that I have accomplished in my life thus far. But I can't help worrying about what my future looks like. I want to put all of my faith in the Lord- knowing that He has my best interest at heart. I want God to continue to keep my life sweet and special. I want to be the best wife I can be, even though it may be hard. Why is it hard to be nice sometimes? Why do I have to constantly think about ways to show my husband that I love him dearly, would lay down my life for him in an instant, or just flat out show him all of the respect he deserves? Why can't that all come naturally? Why do I worry about what God has in store for me in regards to a career?
This week I have been talking with God--alot. Not necessarily asking him for things, but trying to explain to Him why I want the things I want. I just
cannot get it through my head as to why after all of these years praying for my brother to become a Christian, there has been no progress. I don't see why my brother is so set on not believing there is a Savior out there for him, that absolutely loves him, even with all of his faults. I think his crappy childhood and having endured so much pain in his life makes him refuse to think a loving God could allow those things to happen. The worst part is he is such a sweet brother. He loves me so much and tells me everytime I talk to him that he is so proud of me, but I still want so much more from him. I want him to share my faith, to have conversations with me about God's enduring love, and I want him to be in Heaven with me one day.
I need to be reminded of this:
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Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."
Galatians 6:9
