Graduation Day!

So guess what???

im graduating today!!

not really- I still have a year and a half but my best friend, Jessie, is graduating today! And for that Im just as excited as if it were going to be me. I wonder what will going through her head today.

I wonder if as she's getting ready and putting on a super cute dress and doing her make up is she will remember that she will have to put a cap and gown on over all of that cuteness, and that the last time she had to do that was four years ago for Foothill's graduation. I wonder if she will get butterflies as she lines up behind the stage at the Thomas and Mack. I wonder if she will quietly whisper to herself some self motivating line like, "You are awesome girl- you worked so hard for this." Knowing her it will probably be "Thank you Jesus for getting me this far- I praise You." I wonder if at the exact moment she is walking across the stage she will hear her mothers screaming for her somewhere in the audience. I wonder is she will be able to see her in the audience because she doesn't wear her glasses sometimes which causes her to be blind. I wonder is right before she gets her diploma she will be so nervous that she will feel like she is going to pee her pants- the same way we used to feel in high school before our races. I wonder if she will make a fun, cheesy smile and a cute and sincere one before she busts out a terribly ugly and wonderful dance move to make it all her own. I wonder if her family will bring her flowers and cover her face in endless smooches. I wonder if her fiancé, Tanner, will cry ( i don't really wonder that one- I'm 99.9999% sure he will). I wonder if she will tear up. I wonder how bored she will get just sitting in her chair waiting for the other hundreds or thousands of students to finish so she can get the heck out of that arena and sip on some yummy mojitos at her house. I wonder if while she is bored waiting for those students, she will slowly nod off into a light sleep the way she sometimes does at church when she hasn't gotten enough sleep. I wonder if she knows how proud of her that I am and how much I love her.

J'adore Jessie.

Adieu.

Relapse

DATE NIGHT:

So after the gym, Max and I finally decided on a place to go to dinner. We decided on Lucille's BBQ, Black Pepper Grill, P.F. Chang's King Louie's Fishhouse. This allergy to gluten really kicks my butt sometimes. I am weak strong in resisting my urges to food that I cannot have, but tonight was impossible. My crab and shrimp salad finally reached me when I noticed it looked like crap not necessarily like the salads I am used to. There were whole carrot and celery sticks in it, along with a mountain high stack of olives, hard boiled eggs which I dispise do not care for and cucumber and tomatoe slices that couldn't even have fit in Julia Robert's mouth- I mean these things were huge! After taking off amost of these things I began enjoying my salad- until I looked over at Max's plate. Max knows that I can't have bread and that nearly 99% of the restaurants we go to bring over bread as an appetizer, so he usually places it along the far side of his plate where I don't have to look at it. But tonight was too hard to resist! Max took a piece of the steaming hot sourdough bread (my favorite BREAD!) and scooped out the middle, soft part and began chewing it. There was no going back after this.

"I can't take it anymore. Give me a piece," I said in a ravenous voice.

"Are you sure," Max asked.

"I'm sure. I don't care if I'm itchy all night. I NEED some."

and that was that.

After dinner we walked around the District and enjoyed the cool Summer breeze....

.....until i saw....... P.F. CHANGS!!


Thoughts circulating in Drea's mind-

(They have one of your favorite desserts there- and its gluten free. You love chocolate. There's fruit in it so its kind of healthy. It's relatively small. You're burning calories right now by walking that you can afford to make up with that dessert. You went to the gym earlier...


....ENOUGH! I'll ask Max if I can get one!)


Of course Max said yes and we went in and got THE GLUTEN FREE CHOCOLATE DOME WITH BERRIES.

and guess what? My stomach is queasy all because I couldn't control myslef and finished all half of that darn chocolate miracle all by myself.


(stomach induced weak voice mumbling):


Adieu.

Errand Day

I love Fridays. I get to sleep in most of the time and wake up to beautiful sunshine and clouds and cars driving by slowly and usually a couple of messages waiting for me on my phone. I feel significant on Fridays. The day I usually do laundry, bake a new concoction, mail things, catch up on my cleaning around the house, shop (these days are few and far between now since I'm saving for the wedding, but even window shopping is fun), paint my nails, watch some artsy independent film, and sip on some yummy tea.

Fridays keep me sane.

I'm not the most emotionally balanced person ever and there are times when I am cranky and pout but I like to think Fridays balance me out.

Today's movie was : Rachel Getting Married.

I am really into dark movies that most of the time depress others, but this one was especially good. I feel like in life there are not always happy endings and for movie directors to be bold enough to capture moments like these, well that's just bold and I love it. And this movie did end on a positive note so all the better.

I also finished up my Mother's Day shopping! I love buying gifts for people, it makes me happy to think I can make them happy for a day =]

Tonights agenda:

the gym with Max and possibly a date?! HOORAY!!!

Today's special is "Scrambled Brains"

So sorry for all of the crap I'm about to unload but I need to vent. I'm extremely frustrated. I think it all started last night.

setting: Lindo Michocan (Mexican restaurant) for margaritas:

To celebrate Cinco de Mayo me, max, and some of our friends decided to get some margaritas at a restaurant around the corner from Max's place. Everything was great until we saw a married couple we all knew who were out celebrating. The wife of this married couple decided to spend the whole night bashing marriage saying it's a bad idea and what's the point someone will end up cheating anyway and so on and so on. Just what every engaged couple wants to hear, right? WRONG! what is wrong with you? If you're so unhappy in your marriage why are you still married?! And I'm certainly no one to judge but when you are in my and my fiancé's face bashing the respect, commitment, love, and honor we place in our relationship it's going to upset me that you speak the way you do. I really feel sorry for you. And Im not saying that in a bratty, rude way. Honestly I feel sorry for you- I wish you could be happy in your marriage. I ALWAYS want to respect my husband, value his imput, not degrade him, and show him love as often as I possibly can.



Finally I wish my boss would help me more.

Enough scramblings for today.


Here's some good news though: my spring school semester is over, I'm getting married!!, my best friend is having a graduation party this weekend, and no matter what happens in life I know that Christ loves me and my whole world could collapse in front of me and as long as I remember that I'm GOOD to go!!

Adieu bebe

Stay or Leave

there's something about Dave Matthews that's sinister, and romantic, and haunting, and playful.




Maybe different but remember
Winters warm where you and i
Kissing whiskey by the fire
With the snow outside
And when the summer comes
In the river
Swims at midnight
Shiver cold
Touch the bottom
You and I
With muddy toes

Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you should
It was good as good goes
Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you did

Wake up naked drinking coffee
Making plans to change the world
While the world is changing us
It was good good love
You used to laugh under the covers
Maybe not so often now
But the way I used to laugh with you
Was loud and hard

Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you should
It was good as good goes
Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you did

So what to do
With the rest of the day's afternoon hey
Isn't it strange how we change
Everything we did
Did I do all that i should

That I coulda done

Remember we used to dance
And everyone wanted to be
You and me
I want to be too
What day is this
Besides the day you left me
What day is this
Besides the day you went

So what to do
With the rest of the day's afternoon hey
Well isn't it strange how we change
Everything we did
Did I do all that I could

Remember we used to dance
And everyone wanted to be you and me
I want to be too
What day is this
Besides the day you went babe
What day is this