I have no idea how I am going to handle the next four months of my life. I don't know how I am going to survive both full time work and school, leading a group of incredible young women to Christ, getting MARRIED, going on a honeymoon, moving, and trying to give my best friend the BEST bridal shower that has ever been and will ever be. I just have to take it step by step and rely not on my own strength but seek God. That is the only way I will make it out of this alive.
Nostalgia slowly crept up on me and gave me a swift kick in the behind this past week. As I was looking around my room I started to realize that I would shortly have to start packing all of my junk.
..and one of the worst things you ask???
donating my trophies and medals...
I know, i know. Of all the lame things I could be saddened by I get depressed over giving away my trophies. I just am proud of them I guess. I worked hard for those things. They represent mile after mile of countless races, yard after yard I spent rushing in flag football, and every stupid time I cried in softball when I struck out. I used to have this complex when I was younger that being good in sports would make my dad's side of the family proud of me. They never cared about my trophies. Besides, their kids had WAY more anyway. When I look back at it in those terms it almost seems freeing knowing what I am about to do. I'm going to keep four medals though-of the races I am most proud of. Just so my kids will know that back in the day their momma used to dominate in cross country! Nah not really. And no I don't plan on having four children, i only want two. But I have heard many a story of women accidentally getting pregnant even though they were told it was impossible and were being extra "careful" so I'm just giving myself a little buffering room.
It is going to be so weird once my room is all packed up- just seeing all of my stuff gone. It will be especially weird that I have Proverbs 31: 10-12 up on my wall permanently. Oh well, dad can fix that later I suppose.
"A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies. Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value. She brings him good, not harm all the days of her life."
Lord,
Let me bring Max good and never harm.
Amen.
