So all of my friends are leaving me... Ok not really. I'm just being dramatic. But two very important ladies in my life are moving away. I don't think I've ever had to deal with multiple friends leaving- just Julie. And I feel like no matter how much I beg her she will probably never move back. I think I was always the one to move away. Not gonna lie- it hurts. And I don't enjoy crying but everytime I think about Jess and Nicole moving I start crying.
I think that I value their friendships so much because they constantly pour out little glimpses of God to me that no one else at the time can do. It's like my relationship with Max. I feel like if all three of them were not in my life I wouldn't want to get out of bed in the morning, I might not smile at that random stranger walking by just to be nice, and I might not laugh. I know on some level that's unhealthy but it's how I feel.
In my perfect world I think I would live in a small house somewhere where it is SUPER green, with huge trees, purple flowers everywhere, and fresh markets and Nicole, Jess, Julie, and Meegs and I could raise our kids together (or dogs) and we would get chai at least once a week and watch stupid SNL skits and drink wine and try new exotic foods and eat lots and lots of cheese and run and make dumb poop jokes and praise God for everything He does.
I don't know if I ever valued friendship as much as I do
at this point in my life. I've always retreated to my room and spent countless days just spending time thinking in my own head. I think friends bring selfishness out of people and allow you to get glimpses if characteristics you would wish to have and make you aim to be a better person.
Enough of my rambling...
Sorry for being way girly.
Adieu jolie.
